I'm sorry for telling you about my feelings.
I really don't know how to restore this friendship.
Reading the past posts when we were still close
friends, it hurts me to know that it won't happen
again. Why was I so stupid as to let this go with
all my impulsiveness? I'm still living in regret.

I shall get over you, after all that happened.
It's not as though I owed you everything,
because there were times when you hurt
me so bad too, but you're not obliged to
please me too. That's why I'm so confused.
Normal friends, not even close friends,
is all that I'm asking for, please..............

I want to leave this school,
leave all the memories we had,
leave every single damn thing there was.

So when I enter new life,
I'll forget that this even happened,
that you even existed,
that you ever meant the world to me,
I'll forget that you once had my heart.

So long, I'll try not to miss you.

You gave me a 'H', said I could do anything with it. Set me thinking.
In the beginning I thought of H as Happiness, now it's Hurt.

I miss you.
I love staring at your picture over and over again
and still laugh at the expressions you make :)

Happy Valentine's Day, have fun in M'sia.

Somehow I know we're still looking at the same blue sky.

The day's enough if you're here by my side :)

You're going off. You're gone.
I'll miss you, you know?

Yesterday was as though the best day of the year.
I was so happy just for the fact that you were there
with me, do you know how much that meant? :)

You standing next to me left me breathless.
So breathless I thought my heart skipped a beat.
You talking on the phone about serious stuff,
roaming about at the back then suddenly appearing
next to me, walking me through the shopping malls.
You know how much that meant? You leave me breathless.

You suddenly by my side while watching the other guys
try their luck to catch the soft toys, you playing in the arcade
always looking out whether I was near. Then when I appeared
you would give me that classic look that melts my heart.

Movie was the best. I could almost have sat next to you
because I was going to be stuck in the middle of them both.
I told you I didn't want to sit next to him and you hinted
that I could sit next to you through that indirect way...
But I couldnt make things obvious, raising suspicion.

You looked at your phone.
Zj: Eh you got any scandalous message inside not?
You: Errr no? From who?
Zj: Er her la! (points to me)

And then our eyes locked. Your classic blur face.
Like we did something guilty. Oh the innocence! xD

You asked me whether I had water. Yes I haveee! :)

Everytime Zj screams, you would look at me and we would
both laugh at how stupid our classmate was. I love it :)

The mrt ride when you came closer to me and talked about
something that we both laughed at before, directing it purposely
at that guy you're talking to, obviously wanting me to hear it.
I smile and you smile back, tell me what more could I ask for?

I walked out the train doors, not wanting to part with you.
Then at home when I was thinking of you till I almost slept,
then came your heartwarming sweetly sweet sms saying:
U reach home safely already rite?

To know you care, I have nothing else to say :)
You made me smile for hours non stop. How can I thank you.

I'm afraid to disclose my feelings. I'll wait for time to tell.
Tell me, do you like me too? ♥

Stop being so cute you're killing me :)
Can't talk to you for days, I'd be killed by then.

Your voice.

That day you called me.
Asked if I was coming.
If I knew you were going to be there,
I would come, I would go.
I miss your voice, right here right now.

But since we're nothing, I know you won't call again.
But I'm still hoping. Oh all for wishful thinking.

I miss you. I miss your everything.
Your words, they seem to have a cooling effect on me.
Everything you say, I can't help but smile.
Trying hard for you not to see my smile,
you'll never be mine, ohhhhhhhhhhh.

Stop being so damn cute!!!!! :)

Your smile makes me smile :)

Today I saw you by the platform, alone.

After rushing out of class, I was hoping I could see you, even if from afar.
To say the last goodbye, that image of you that'll conclude my day.
Then in my own fun and laughter, I wanted to see you, longing.
Then I heard your name. My heart starts pounding..........................

There you stood, alone and lonely. I wish I could be there for you.
To ask you what's wrong and feel your pains and troubles.
But who am I to interfere with your life? I'm nothing, really nothing.
As the wind blow through your hair, I can't help but stare.
Won't you let me take a look at your heart? Just for now?
But I can't make it too obvious. Arouses suspicion.

Keeping you as a secret keeps my head spinning, my heart
whirling and trying to keep still when my mind keeps filling up with you.

As I remember those times and things that you did to touch my heart,
I really hope for more of those times. To see you, even if from afar.

I love how you would look at me whenever there's a chance.
I love how you would look out for my smile when you say something funny.
I love how you would give weird but amusing comments that fiddles my heart.
I love how you would squat next to my seat to ask me questions.
I love how you would ask about what has happened to me and my emotions.
I love how you would come next to me if what I said was unclear.
I love how you would lay on your desk whenever you're feeling tired.
I love how you would catch a glimpse of me whenever I laugh hysterically.
I love how you would look out for me when my favourite teacher comes in.
I love how you would talk to me out of the blue, like a little surprise.
I love how your little simple message simply makes me smile to myself.
But things, they aren't that simple ;(